Current mood:	crushed
Current music:	Fix You, Coldplay, X&Y

Now I Really Am Abandoned

So, it looks like Bee is going to be leaving.  She's got a gig in Indianopolis, which she wasn't going to take, but, now, she's got Archie with her, and he's not a restful spirit, so she says it's better.  I'll be taking care of the MacG's house again, and their dog.  Oh, Archie is the canine spirit that was in Kaitlin's house.  Auntie Bee did a check after dinner, but she says that it's pretty clear, minus Archie. This thing in Indiana is a cathedral, or it used to be a cathedral.  So, it's not consecrated now, and I guess once the protection of consecration is gone, all kinds of stuff whooshes in to fill the energy vacuum.  She says she'll keep us posted.

That's one down, or maybe two, if you count Stace.  Today, Kaitlin and I were at the beach writing in our journals, and she told me that her family is going to Europe, specifically Austria and Germany.  Her cousin Leo (the LARPer) that I wrote about before, is her mom's nephew.  It's her mom's family that lives in Germany.  Her dad's family came from England, originally.  They're going to be gone for the last three weeks before school starts, which means pretty darn soon.  I was pretty ticked at first, but  Kaitlin said she tried to get them to let her stay home, so she didn't say anything.  But she has to go with them, and I'm going to be totally alone.

I am so bummed.  If it weren't for being able to talk to Stace on the Internet pretty often, I'd probably become really goth darn depressed.  Hah.  It's just not funny, is it?  When I told him about Kaitlin's family, he said he wished I was going with them.  Like, maybe, his parents would let him go to Germany to meet up with us, or something.  But there's no use in wishing for what's not going to happen.

He surprised me by saying that he and his mother went shopping for clothes for him, which is just weird.  The Queen of Packing Light is buying stuff that won't fit into their suitcases when they come home???  I asked him what he'd been doing that he needed more clothes.  I had visions of him getting attacked by a wild goat that ate his shirt or falling out of a tree and tearing his jeans, well, you know.  But he said that they had some interesting things there and that he really needed to get some new stuff.  I tried to get an explanation, but no go.

Oh, no.  I hope he didn't decide he's  not a goth anymore.  I need him to be my little goth friend.  I count on him.  More than that.  What if he met some Scottish chick and he's changing the way he looks for her?  I think I'm having a panic attack.  He can't go falling in love with someone else.  He belongs to me...whoa...I'm sounding like some wacko stalker.  But I can hardly breathe when I think of someone taking Stace away from me.  He's been with me my whole life, since we were babies.

This is bad.

Griz